this is me as of 12/07/20012
my weight is now 196 lb, I have experienced drastic improvement in cardio, and I have physically more powerful than before as shown in my pad work and bag work. my waist size have drastically decreased as now I can fit well into medium size shirts and fleece pants. I did not measure myself but before (4 years ago) I would struggle to fit even in large size clothing.
Bad news now is that the start up company I am working for has laid me off due to finance issues. I am out of work, but in the upcoming spring I have been accepted to graduate school in my alma mater(my undergraduate school) and I will be continuing my graduate studies next year. Unfortunately, the school is all the way across the country and I have to move again. Even though graduate school will be very busy and brutal, I will not stop working out and I have taken up running daily.
When I graduated college, I originally planned to go for a PhD degree right away, hoping to find someone in graduate school. But due to my weakness, lack of experience, lack of finances, and some unrequited lust I left graduate school for the industry, using the money I earned to frequent high class legal brothels. This is my second chance to maybe achieve both.
I am surprise, though, at how a lot of people seemed to be against the idea of changing myself. Look at the discussion which I posted on reddit about this blog. I only hope TheSpooneh takes my advice and hit the gym. He claims to have caucasian women chasing after him, and yet she is in a situation where she cannot see him often. If he really read my posts and took NewHope’s advice, he should realized that if a woman is really into you, she will NOT miss her chances with you. She would rearrange her schedule just to see him. If she is not attracted to him physically, then she must be using him for money or “hidden advantages”, nothing more. I suspect the woman is actually banging someone else behind as back and wise up. As for shakeDown, lets just say the best attitude, will NEVER be as sexy as 6-pack abs. All the little things you have you watch out for what you lack in physical attractiveness, is simply NOT worth it.
Similarly, a while ago I had a conversation with a Christian pastor who is also opposed to the idea of changing myself. “Don’t will so hard to become an extrovert as it is not the way God made you”. Ooookay, so explain to me, how is going back to being a shy, reclusive, chubby, introvert going to help me?
Can you believe the type of counter productive advice they give? They claim that I was wrong to work out so hard because its not about looks. So what? I should continue being fat? I tried to believe its your confidence and attitude that would give me the success. I really did, because I know looks is something I don’t have. But I did in fact observed the real world, I realized the clear reason why the pretty girl is holding the fit and handsome guy’s hand, and not mine. I probably had the ability to provide for her better than the guy she’s with, but I did NOT have the looks to attract.
God did not make me an extrovert so I should continue being reclusive. Willing to make changes in my life is apparently wrong and want me to continue being as I was. BEING THE WAY I WAS, IS THE REASON WHY I AM INCEL! They want me to sit and wait and wait for a miracle, but I am wise enough to realize I have to take action.